MLand

I ended my day with a mental breakdown.
1. Schuyler self feed himself and I can see rice all over the floor. (Oh yes, I forgotten to place newspapers on floor again). To add on, he purpose pour all the water from his cup to the high chair and the floor. The dining tables, chairs, high chair and floor were in a mess with rice and water. I couldn't control my temper and smacked his hands 3 times. I scolded him and while cleaning up I screamed at myself. After I cooled down, I cried. I don't know what is wrong with me. I think I am too stressed with this kind of lifestyle. But I felt so much better after the screaming and crying session.

2. Chloe vomitted her dinner while she was brushing her teeth. Fine. She vomitted at the basin. I showered for her and Schuyler, everything goes fine. Was at the kitchen preparing to wash the clothes, heard Chloe crying. She vomitted again. Her hair, pyjamas and the whole toilet floor was dirted. I couldn't help it but scolded Chloe. Why didn't you vomit inside the toilet bowl or the basin? After I cooled down, I took a good look at Chloe. Her panties were pulled down halfway, seems like she wanted to go toilet and pee. I asked her she want to pee is it? She said she has got stomache and want to poo. But I couldn't let her move at all as the whole floor is dirted. I looked at the floor and I am at a loss of how to wash the floor. I screamed away again. I have to step on the dirted floor and wash up the toilet. Schuyler was standing outside the toilet and upon looking at the floor, he feel like vomitting also. I shouted at him and ask him to go away before he also vomit. After washing the toilet, my mood went back to normal. Perhaps I vent my anger on the toilet floor tiles when I was scrubbing away. I monitored Chloe as I am afraid she might have stomach flu. Seems like it's only a stomach upset perhaps with wind in the stomach.